About my blogging:
Lately it’s become more of a project… I’m not really trying to be “a blogger” or push my site.. I love being able to share what i can and it’s cool when people respond and dialogue happens. I dig it fa sho! But because I do it every day, and generally it’s about what’s going on in the world, it will be incredibly interesting when, say, i’ve done it for a year. I think that’s more of a motivating factor for me at this point in time. But things evolve over time and it can be both.
Basically, I don’t really know what I’m doing and I make it up as I go. Not the thoughts but the actual sentances/blogging as a doing. I think that information is powerful because it can lead to informed action, creation. I think that I have a unique perspective (that I am always trying to grow) because of the ways in which I see the intersections of oppression, and the ways in which the minute, seemingly innocuous details of our lives (as seen in language, for example) are foundational to what we wish to change.. that without changing these details we’re still only placing a band-aid on issues. I operate from a place that is very, very outside the norm.. I don’t know how else to describe it yet.
I do what I do because I have this theory, bear with me. If people could see what is happening in their state, in their country, in our culture, if they could be engaged enough to pay attention, maybe they could see what I see.. where we are headed on our current path. “If you’re not outraged you’re not paying attention.” Every news story or blog or opinion piece or video or photo all ads to a global and local narrative of where we are headed. If we can’t see the larger narrative – let alone how the very rhetoric of it, the invisible norms, etc are at play – how can we consciously and intentionally choose our future? Yes, my goal includes a revolution (see below). Otherwise I think the world is going to hell, and I’m doing what I can to make a difference. I thrive off of information and knowing what is happening, I read a ridiculous amount on the interweb, so I figured I should share with people in my networks who may be interested, because if you’re not a part of the solution you’re a part of the problem. It also helps me to expel the energy inside me… the energy that gathers as my brain whirls as I interact with the world around me..
Or maybe they could see something totally new and inform new ways of thinking. Who knows? But the first step is to have information, digest it, and be critical.
About the work I do/my Revolutionary Vision:
here’s a piece (slightly modified) I wrote about a year ago.. raw emotional streaming consciousness conveys how i feel best, apparently:
The people I work with day in and day out are literally building a positive movement. We are manifesting relationships not based on domination/subordination or “us” vs. “them” mentalities but rather co-intentional learning experiences, respect, and understanding through what feels like sheer will alone. I respect that every person is going through their own struggles, their own life paths, learning their own lessons. And those life experiences create a standpoint from which one views the world. Which is why i don’t take the opinions of my self-defined community as normative. I don’t take my views of the world as unbiased. Or right for everyone in all situations. I just know they make sense for me in relation to my experiences and my life. My point is that we are building, manifesting, creating. And it is hard fucking work…
One reason I have a heavy heart right now because I feel like what I am working for is being misunderstood. Or passed over. Like people aren’t even taking the time to try and understand what it’s all about. I know it’s easier to keep your head down, focus on school, your job, your relationship, just get to the weekend and play some pong, relax and have a good time with your friends and/or family. I’ve been there. I’ve thought that was what life is about. That CAN be what it is about. But then what changes? If anything is static there is a problem. Things should always be in flux. If we, the youth, aren’t looking critically at the world around us we are just going to buy in to it. And look at what’s happening around us. Everyone is miserable, jobs are being lost, we all know the story. All of this is happening because of our current infrastructures and the way we do business as usual. even normal things in daily life. It is all connected. I REFUSE to buy in to this. Instead I work my ass off to change what tiny, minute portion of it I can. Because if you are not part of the solution you are part of the problem. People can be part of the solutions in varying degrees, but always keep in mind that in whatever ways you AREN’T challenging or questioning or critiquing you could be perpetuating a detrimental cycle. and that takes a lot of focus and dedication. and THAT is a lot of fucking work too. This is a call to action people need to hear, while the callers also understand that everyone has lessons to be learned in this life
My vision of a revolution is different. Generally what happens in any movement is that people join together to fight a common cause without examining their own role as oppressors (to others or each other). They are fighting one very specific issue while still operating from a place that takes most of the norms for granted (in most ways they still uphold the status quo). In my vision, when people of various backgrounds/intersections join together to fight the larger system at work against them collectively, we must first deconstruct and rebuild our relationships with each other by means of confronting our own privileged and oppressed identities, changing ideas and world views and language which are based out of our privilege in order to stand in true solidarity with one another. I believe it is the only way for something truly progressive to be built, our relationships with one another must change, how we listen to and validate the experiences of others, especially when it comes to our own identities of privilege. It’s the only way to be completely united, and to ensure that whatever comes after the revolution will not repeat the same mistakes.. we’ll make new ones though I’m sure. It’s not going to be utopia. Praxis. Always. This is why I only want to work with people who are willing to engage in such an uncomfortable process. I don’t see how anything else can be called revolutionary.. fighting oppressors in and of itself isn’t really that “revolutionary”.. though i do suppose it depends on which definition you’re going with (the “abrupt change” one or the “totally new and different” one). I think that a revolution that isn’t transcendent is pointless. Impossible, you say?
”Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small [people] who find it easier to live in the world they’ve been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It’s an opinion. Impossible is not a declaration. It’s a dare. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary. Impossible is nothing.”
— Muhammad Ali
About Me as a person:
My best friend describes me as incredibly silly, logical-ish, and having a pretty strict no nonsense policy 😉
I’ve also did the 30 day blogging challenge, and I think it paints a picture of the kind of person I am on a more personal level.